Each of our journeys will sadly encounter pain and loss and bring grief to our hearts. My intent in writing this blog is to share my grief journey. Have you felt abandoned? Alone? Lost? Overwhelmed in your pain and grief? I sure have. There have been times and seasons that have had pain that cuts so deep along the way that it has left me feeling like my heart has been ripped out and that I couldn’t catch my breath. This journey has had many times where I was with a group of people and even though they were laughing and talking and continuing on with their lives, everything within me was screaming: my only son is dead, my husband is dead… how am I supposed to just continue on like everything is okay… none of this is okay. The death of my only son has had me in the faith battle of my life. As I continue on my own personal journey, I continue to pursue healing and peace… the peace that passes all understanding. I am convinced that this is the type of peace that I need… the peace that passes all understanding… as I believe that I am incapable of understanding the why of my circumstances. As you travel along your path, my hope and prayer is that you will also find healing, hope, and peace.
Happy birthday to my son. Oh how I miss you. I have come to enjoy this tradition of writing a letter to you on your birthday. I sit with tears pouring down my face as I write on my laptop and look at pictures on my phone remembering… remembering the joy that you brought to…
Do you ever feel alone, abandoned, or broken? Do you ever wonder who cares about what is happening in your life or about what you are going through? Do you wonder if anyone knows how much you are hurting or how lonely you feel? I want you to remember that no matter how you are…
My dearest PK, This has now become a tradition for me. As I move into your birthday each year, then I set aside time to write you a letter reflecting on the past year. It is also a time where I just sit in the moment of how much I love and miss you and…
Hello dear friends. I have so many thoughts on my mind and so many feelings from this past week on my heart tonight. Prayerfully, I will be able to express them clearly to you. This past week, I have had the honor of sitting with so many who are hurting and grieving. I have watched…
My heart is with all of you who are walking through grief and struggling with pain during this time. Currently for me, it is 3 am Christmas morning. As I reflect on our journey this very early Christmas morning, then my heart and mind wander back to the early days of when I first started…
Dear Kirk, I truly cannot believe that I am two hours away from the 10th anniversary of the day you died. When I look at all that has happened in the last ten years then in some ways it feels like you have been gone for even longer than that. I still remember the events…
8 years later- June 26th … Each year on the anniversary of PK’s death we attempt new adventures and enjoy God’s beautiful creation as we celebrate the very precious time that we had with him. On the first anniversary of PK’s death we were at home, and I wrote pages and pages as I relived…
Happy birthday to my sweet son. PK, words are not capable of describing how much I love and miss you. As I reflect on your birthday this year, my heart is filled with so many things. My heart overflows with gratitude for every moment that I had the joy and privilege of spending with you.…
I love the title of this song by Tauren Wells. Each time since the first time that I heard this song, my heart has just filled with hope as I listened to the beautiful music and to the message of this song. It is full of hope. Hope that is so desperately needed by us…
As we look around our world today, we see many faces of grief and pain. Many families and friends are hurting and are in need of comfort and hope. Steve, a friend of mine and someone who I worked with for many years, died after an intense cancer battle on August 13th. It was just…
