Six years ago today… this mother lost her son, this wife lost her husband, and these children plus my son lost their father. Six years ago today… we were all in a state of shock. Suddenly, we were without Kirk. As I think back to my time in trauma with my husband after the accident, there are images that are…
Grief. Grief can be lonely. Six years ago today was when my husband had his accident at work. One moment he was walking outside simply going about his day. He had no idea that his life was about to change forever in an instant. The next moment he was lying paralyzed from the chest down…
Loss can be found in so many circumstances in our lives. For the girls and I, August 2011 when their daddy/my husband died, and June 2013 when their brother/my only son died screams out at us as our HUGE, devastating losses. Nothing compares with our two guys dying within 22 months of each other in our hearts…
The girls and I had such a fun time at Saturday’s St. Louis Cardinal’s baseball game. We sure wish the score had been reversed, but we were so thankful for a beautiful night (82 degrees 🙂 ), free jerseys, and awesome fireworks in spite of our losing game! Kylee has become quite the baseball fan, and she…
Recently, I was talking to one of my friends who had a daughter that had been killed in a car accident. His daughter was similar in age to my son PK who was killed at the age of 18. He was struggling with how to process his grief. He said, “I put all of her pictures away……
After my husband died in August 2011, his family was gathered with us at our home as we were preparing to go to the visitation. I am quite sure it was the baby brother who asked, “Will we still have Thanksgiving here?” I remember replying something like, “It will be so important to the kids and I…
Have you ever been to the ocean? If you have, then did you spend time in the ocean and let the waves roll over you? Did you spend time on the beach watching the waves roll in and out? Have you ever been to the ocean when there was a severe storm and watched the waves strike…
Have you ever been caught outside in a storm? What are the thoughts, images, or kinds of storms that come to your mind when you think about the storms that you have experienced? Darkness? Lightening? Thunder? Hail? Blizzard? Hurricane? Tornado? There are many types of storms that we experience in our day to day lives that…
June 26 2017. The fourth anniversary of my only son’s death. My mind searches… how is this even possible? My heart breaks… no, I just want my son. My soul cries…I will never understand. I have had so many people that have asked me in the past several years the following questions: Is it better?…
My grief journey has not only been filled with my grief but it has also been filled with the tremendous pain of my grieving children. My two daughters were 11 and 14 and my son was 16 when their daddy died, and my two girls were 13 and 16 when their big brother died. It has been heartwrenching…